I am exhausted from projects that keep piling up. I guess this
life is better than having to search for something interesting
to do. My problem is that EVERYTHING is interesting and demanding!
Today, it's time to send Judy's Journal to Patsy McCowan, my
brilliant web manager. I can't think straight, let alone focus
on one topic.
Here is my solution. My brain is bouncing off walls, so what
you are about to read is an alphabet of what's on my plate and
mind and what's in those piles. My guess is that lots of you
can relate to the presence of the insurgent multi-tasker at
work inside your head.
A - My heart is aching to get into the studio. When I finish
this, that's where I am going. I am aching to make art (that's
two a's for the price of one).
B- Breathe. That's what John tells me to do. "Look at
what you've accomplished instead of obsessing over what still
needs doing." October 11 and 12 was the first set of Stanley
Kunitz Childhood Home tours. There were over 80 people there!
It was wonderful! And I am so proud of the hard work that the
volunteer docents put into their tours.
C- Cleaning the house relaxes me. I hate clutter and dust,
so tomorrow when I clean the house for our poetry group, I am
in for another win-win situation.
D- Distraction, thy name is Netflix! If it weren't for John
keeping up with movies titles, we would not have enjoyed these
films recently: Every Little Step, Rage, The Spider, the
Mistress and the Tangerine.
E - Exercise is critical for me. Regular visits to the gym
bring me into a circle of friends, AND exercise is good for
me. How can I miss?
F - Friends. Believe me, I have some good ones. Some even understand
when I disappear into projects for months at a time and don't
get angry when they don't hear from me.
G - Gloom = shorter daylight hours. As Charlie Brown said,
H - Hoopla. Less is more.
I - Ironing. Who says doing something boring isn't redemptive?
What a pleasure it is to see those winkles go. How I wish I
could apply that miracle to situations and relationships.
J - Jennie. My sister. The love of my life. Well, so is John.
Another two letters for the price of one (see "A").
K - Knowledge. The stuff that keeps me awake at night. It's
better than having nightmares. I guess.
L - Lemonade, the sweet/tart drink made from lemons. That word
makes me look out of the window and see at the landscape sculpture
John and I made from the trees downed in last December's ice
storm (Judy's Journal, 2009 June).
M - Michelangelo and the Pope's Ceiling by Ross King.
N - Next. The word I use a lot, as in "What am I supposed
to do next?"
O - My home office is a space shared with my husband. He has
his side, I have mine. I spent a lot of time in here. It is
home to the computer and the piles I whined about in the opening
paragraph. In November, my plan is to organize the piles so
I can carry on with the book I am writing.
P - Because our monthly poetry group meets tomorrow, last week
I wrote a poem from random lines found in poetry books and a
few science texts. I learned there is no such thing as random.
The poem developed and showed me was on my mind. It became an
elegy for my brother.
Q - Right in the middle of a particularly crazy week, I decided
to learn how to make quiche. Why? I wanted to try something
new. Projects consist of known elements and problems. Quiche-making
was new. It was fun. It tasted good.
R - Research. Reading. Note taking. Transcribing interviews.
Libraries. Places waiting for me to enter and find answers to
questions, as well as more questions.
S - Shambles. My side of the home office (see "O").
T - Time. Needing more of it? That is impossible. There is
only so much of it.
U - Undertow. Take on one more project, and it will become
more than a metaphor.
V - Volunteer. The word that might become a cause of death.
W - Well done. Addictive word, resulting in urge to do more.
X - Marks the spot.
Y - The Yellow House: van Gogh, Gauguin, and Nine Turbulent
Years in Arles by Martin Gayford. Got it, haven't read it,
Z - I refuse to de-zide on a word for Z. Too much work.